Saturday, 24 December 2016

Wish I could be home for Christmas

Someone asked me yesterday what my favourite Christmas Carol was. I answered that there were a few I really like... and several that I really do not like terribly much!

He then asked me what my favourite Christmas ‘song’ was. That was more difficult to answer... but the answer is definitely not Slade’s ‘I wish it could be Christmas every Day’!

Nor would it be "Stop The Cavalry" by Jona Lewis, with its repeated line ‘wish I could be home for Christmas’. Nope, not my favourite. And yet I find myself humming it, singing it and whistling it a lot. Possibly that is because it has been playing in many shops I have been in during the weeks leading up to Christmas. But then, so have many other Christmas songs. I suspect that this one has stuck in my mind because I feel I can echo the sentiment.

I wish I could be home for Christmas.

I will, of course, be home and joining with the family for Christmas dinner etc. But this will be the first time in (almost) 40 years of marriage that Jane and I will not have been together on Christmas Eve, nor able to wish each other a Happy Christmas after the Watchnight Service and exchange our own Christmas gifts, and the first time in our family’s life when I have not been there first thing on Christmas Day and we have not been able to open our presents around the tree first thing in the morning.

I have Christmas Eve and Christmas Day services in the parish I am currently with in Perthshire while Jane has the same in her own parish. So we are miles apart.

Our children – although adults – are not terribly impressed! They have named it ‘Chrexit’!

I could easily (too easily) begin to feel sorry for myself. But a moment’s thought puts this all into perspective. A moment’s thought for those facing their first Christmas without a dear loved one, for those who will be alone all Christmas, for those who have been driven from their homes into distant lands by terror, war, famine or drought, for those without a home at all... and so on.

We have made Christmas into a feast of food, comfort and family. And I love all of that! But it does not truly represent what the first Christmas involved, and which still sounds alarmingly contemporary... people far from home, with nowhere to stay, no doubt anxious and unsettled, eventually driven by the terror instigated by a cruel ruler into a distant land, and so on...

When I do raise a glass with my family come 2pm on Christmas Day and when we settle down in the warmth of home to open our gifts and share in a sumptuous meal, I hope I don’t forget Mary and Joseph and the infant Jesus and what they faced, nor forget what so very many are facing this Christmas.

After all, after a brief (and in the scale of things, utterly insignificant) separation, I will be at home for Christmas.


Sunday, 4 December 2016

Advent Anticipation

Oh Advent!

Season of prayer and preparation.

Season of watching and waiting.

Season of patience and perseverance.

Season of anticipation and alertness.

I love Advent!

But I lament how it has been overtaken by premature Christmas celebration!

I prefer to dip into the ancient wisdom and intention of this season as a time of reflection and – indeed – repentance.

Although the penitential intent of this Season has been lost (and was never as significant as Lent) it is nonetheless a very important part of Advent, as indicated by the Lectionary’s rather awkward references to John the Baptist on the second and third Sundays of this season (one of the few instances when I think that the Lectionary planners must have had an early or long lunch!)

But I do try and take seriously the penitential intent of this season.

Not in the committed self-denial of Lent, but in terms of reflecting upon my life and my discipleship, and pondering how prayerful or prepared I am for the coming of the Lord.

This Advent I have been reflecting upon my life in relationship with others... as a Husband, as a Father, as a Friend, as a Minister, as a Child of God.

This is not all negative! There is much to celebrate. But also some forgiveness and healing required. And always the need to turn again, and seek God’s grace and strength to live and act and follow more faithfully.